School

Hey,

So I've never really written a blog, but my cousin does so i figured why not give it a shot you can write what your feeling kinda like a journal which I never really was good at either but anyway do here it goes.

I was thinking today about my brother who past away almost 4 years ago and he did graduate high school after he died and he never got to do anything he wanted to do. He got out of high school and he was moved out at the time with some people and he wanted to go to go to a post secondary school and never got the chance to do what he wanted with his life. He was late graduating which is ok. I was proud of him for everything he has or I guess I should say had since he has passed away. Anyways not really the point of what I am getting at. My brother whos name was Shawn had a heart transplant when he was 16 and he had everything to live for and he lived a good life and he had goals that he never got to try to accomplish.

So I was thinking today about my life and what I had done that was anything important or special. My life right now isnt that great or interesting. I work full time at McDonalds 10 am-6 pm monday to friday. Which is all well and good it pays my bills and rent and so on but what in my life am I accomplishing. I had ok marks in high school and went to university for a year and half my marks first year were ok they werent great but they were as follows: Intro to Cell and Molecular Biology 60%, General Chemistry I 79%, Introductory Foods 70%, Critical Thinking and Writing 69%, Introduction to Organisms 52%, General Chemistry II 53%, Families in Contemporary Society 73%, Finite Mathematics 58%, Religions of the World:Eastern Tradition 62%. Yes I know some of these marks arent the greatest and could be improved but it was my first year and it was a big change for me and I know I wasnt ready for it. I was just out of high shcool and all my friends were going and it was being paid for by my grandfather all I had to do was work hard and I didn't do as good as I wish I did. Now looking back on my half of second year I went to I failed I was living on my own and working and having fun living alone with no parents to tell me what to do.

I like living on my own the novelty of it all has worn off now and my sister is going back to school sometime and I liked university it was hard but I really liked it at first when I decided to drop out of my second year second semester I was glad to have a full time job and an apartment away from home. Now I miss school and I miss home where things were free and you had rules and people that cared about you that told you to do your homework, clean your room, told you to help make supper, and to wash your pots and to tell you to put your dishes in the dishwasher. If I could change what I decided before I moved out of my parents home and knew how hard it was and how much I would miss school and would miss learning I would take it all back and have still been on suspension probably but would have paid to live at home until my suspension was over and gone back to school with a new outlook. Now I dont have the support to go back to school like I want to.

I havent saved any money since I moved out because of all my bills ect. After I catch up on my debts and maybe I will find a way to save money and pay for myself to go back to school and get a decent education. I really like children and I like to study about chemistry and biology but I really messed up at university when I was there and now after a year and a half im 20 years old and I now think I have the drive to go back to school I learned that I need to work hard at it and learn and study. I someday want to go back to school and show my family I can do this and I can be the only one of my siblings to get a degree from university and get really good marks and be really successful at something in life.

Anyways thats all I have for now.

Lisa Smith