Well this is my second blog post I havent really felt inspired to write since my last post in November. Anyways since my last post I have moved home and am enjoying it. Its nice to be home and to have groceries as I went shopping but anyway enough boring stuff about groceries lol.
So I had these weird dreams for weeks and now they are over I have normal completely random dreams now lol. Anyways my nightmare always seemed to end in me being alone and surronded by people I did not know and I was unsure of why I was having this dream. I had spoke to a friend about it several times and he informed me that maybe I should try to control my dream and to see if I can somehow change how it ends or be able to contact him in my dream or someone else I knew. Now I have concluded that my dream was about my fear of not having friendship or love in my life as I have been single for a few months now (which is different for me as I have been in 2 long term relationships back to back). Now that the dreams have stopped and my outlook on my past has changed as I have relalized you should let go of the past because my dreams were clearly telling me that something was wrong and I was alone in them for a reason now that I am not thinking about my past and am starting to think of who I want to be to make me happy. I have realized that what other people think doesnt really matter as much as what you think of yourself if you are happy with you you are you are more likely to find someone who relates to you and good vibes attract people and friends.
Life has changed for me the past few months and its for the better I have never really been that creative or able to write and have things make sense to me. I am single and for once im ok with that because im changing who I am and Im learning who I am and able to talk with a good friend on the phone and we talk about tons of stuff and we talk about life and random topics about life in the east coast vs life on the west coast sometimes and many other things. I am working full time as you all know. I am eating healthier now and I want to lose the weight ive gained to not be overweight and be a more healthy human being.
Anyways someday I hope to be a healthy more active individual and someday and have goals set for what kind of job I want and the kind of life I want to live and what job I want and what aspirations and goals I want to attempt to achieve in my life. Life for me has been interesting so far and i have enjoyed most of it even the difficult parts of my life. These parts of my life have made me who I am today and have made me a good person. My life has changed who I am for the better and I hope I continue to grow and change and have goals for myself and figure out where I want to go with my life and I want to show people that I can be who I am and also find my own successes in life.
Anyways that is all for now,
Lisa
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